its an obsession

" impossible is an understatement "

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love is as much of an object of obsession ;

everybody wants it . everybody seeks it .

but few ever achieve it those who do will

cherish it ; be lost in it & amonq all

never . . . never forget it !

the loner .

& she walks alone . . .

the loner ; not ah follower & not so much ah leader .

never quiet but not to loud . dominate but also

sensitive . cold hearted but loves fully ! not ah lover

not ah fiqhter .

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he said if you make me madd ; ill eat you

so i pissed him off - & it was the best i ever had . =]

haha i love my qirlss .

bacardi - watermelon .

what can i say about this weekend ?
shit was to poppinq for words - -
this shit had me qoneee ; lol but i fucks
with it . funny how ah niqht that was
suppost to be bowlinq ended up like this .
it was worth it - i love my qirls .

first day of sprinq

first day of sprinq & its freakinq snowinq !

smh - - kant wait for it to qet warmm

agenda for today :

- do internet web desiqn project

- fiqure out prom colors <3

- qet the prom house toqether .

- party with the friends

" i am the miracle . "

Our attitude towards life determines life's attitude towards us.

- earl nightingale

one of the great undiscovered joys of life comes from doing

everything one attempts to the best of one's ability. There is a

special sense of satisfaction, a pride in surveying such a work,

a work which is rounded, full, exact, complete in its parts, which the

superficial person who leaves his or her work in a slovenly, slipshod,

half-finished condition, can never know. It is this conscientious completeness

which turns any work into art the smallest task well done becomes a miracle of achievement.”

- mandino

step by step

in this world . . .

i have only myself to rely on ; i rather

walk this path alone . then not to walk it at all .

the womens collection .

fuckinq kold outside - - qrrr . whack ass

fire drill ; in this whack ass shool . dumb ass

broads ; typical ass people just irritated .

anyways ; all tho i was freezinq my ass off

couldnt help but notice that almost everyone

has ah pair of uqqs on .

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so these are basically everywhere now ; i would be

ah hypocrit to say that i dont own three pairs . dont

see how anyone couldnt . their simply comfortable

and semi - fashionable . kan wear them with almost

anythinq .

imperfection is beauty

i believe that everytinq happens for ah

reason . people chanqe so that you can learn

to let qo ; thinqs qo wronq so you can appreciate

them when they're riqht ! you believe lies so you eventually

learn not to trust anyone but yourself , & somethines qood

thinqs fall apart so better thinqs can fall toqether .

- marylin monroe .

so im learninq not to take my life for

qranted . noticinq its the little thinqs that count

the most . theres heaven & this world is my hell &

im just tryinq to live throuqh it ! in ah way ; i like to

think that ive qrown up , matured some would say . i use

to be that younq nieve qirl . would never take no for an

answer ; as stubborn as it qets . now ; im still that younq

qirl i just kno ah lil better this time around .

rawr - ima dinosaur

qoute of the day : nobody can qo back & start ah

new beqinninq . but anyone can start today &

make ah new endinq - maria robinson

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today was strate ; actually it was pretty qood .
couple lauqhs here & there . work was chilled
qot into ah sliqht arqument with the bestie
but no biqqie - - she kno i love herr . mwuah *

♥

damn ; its the last episode of baldwin hills i hardly

even noticed . i wont lie this use to be my shit ! its startinq

to qet kinda old . kant even call it reality to much actinq involved .

kant wait till colleqe hill ! =] makinq the band - - smh .

kinda self explanatory . nuff said ?

top 10 freshmen .

the new kids .

so as some of you miqht not know about me ;
im ah xxl magazine feen . so i couldnt help
but fall in love with the october issue . it has
upcominq artist such as ; kid cudi <3 . blu
mickey factz <3 ; corey qunz . wale ; asher roth .
charles hamilton . & so onn . . . . i must say
tho i was very upset to see that the "cool kids"
also known as mikey & chuck was not in the issue .

seventh period philosophy

qoute of the day : " to love is to risk not beinq

loved in return . to hope is to risk pain . to try is to

risk failure , but risk must be taken because the

qreatest hazard in life is to risk nothinq . "

- - anonymous .

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seventh period ; math klass thinkinq about ASSHOLES !

briana : wishy washy stupid mother fuckers ! some are compulsive
jealous conceited lyinq cheatinq jackasses. fuck niqahs
jackie : niqqas be slippinq ; nah more like he tripped and bust his ass ! lmao
rhea : you can only help a niqqa so far ; you feel me ? dont ever qet to cauqht up .

all your doinq is settinq yourself up for dissapointment ; kant chanqe the unwilinq

addy : you can try all you can, but you can't change an asshole =]

dee :assholes are just gonna be what they were born to be ...

ASSHOLES ; regardless of what you do!


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thee essentials _ .*

money [ $$$ . ] - for if anythinq ever katches my eye
ipod touch - kid cudi ; drake & mickey factz [ its ah must ]
my keys - yup shop rite price plus card =]
blistex - this & ah liqht lip qloss ; juice me !
trident - watermelon twist the only qum i fuck with .
condements * - safe sex is always the best sex
" black america we have to do better "

never ; isnt an option .

nothinq is impossible in this world ; as

the word impossible itself means ,

" IM POSSIBLE " - amit
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dreams are more then that last 30 minutes of you sleepinq .

its ah choice ; for you to make them your reality or for

them to dissapear . we all dream first ; and then act

on it . how far you want to take it depends on you !

proud to say ; I AM A DREAMER .

i have no limit ; to persue them to the best of my ability .

& the best way i know how ; throuqh me -- *

trapped .

i cant handle it ; this world - these people

the fakes . the real . the followers

lies - thee betrayal ; love - thee uncertainty

its to much weiqht on my shoulders .

to much ; i kant qet ah qrip on

my heart - somethinq ah part of me

but feels so distant ; pumps life into

my veins but then aqain rock solid - -

the mind - trapped behind bars

waitinq to be freed ; my voice to be heard

note to self .

never fear what one doesnt understand .

show no feelinqs to those who are obliqated to object

puttinq your pride to the side should now & never be an option

liqht matches - - keep it blunt .

put trust & loyalty to those who only deserve it

live every second of every minute ; to the hiqhest

prove people wronq . do what others wouldnt

never expect more then whats beinq handed to you

live with less dissapoinments & instead more knowledqe

words of thouqht .

ive been so focused on beinq what everyone else isnt .

so much more then just standinq out ; the thouqht of beinq labled different

everyone so hardly strives to be perfect . as im filled with koldness & animosity

your filled with qoals & dreams . & all i have is kuriosity ?

the world is filled with colors ; but i choose to paint it black & white

always quick to prove ah point . when in the end i dont kno if im riqht

my heart ? - - rock solid . it simply feels nothinq

FUCK OFF ! the act of one abandoninq