" thee forbidden . "

" he told me he was ah HIGH achiever ; down for
when i need em [ told me he'll make me fly ]
& by the end of the niqht , made me ah believer ! "
- rhea irenè taitt .




&&hearts.;
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your heart beats faster , your hands qet clamy
butterflies fills your stomach & your leqs start shakinq
your mouth qets watery - while this heat sensation rises
the wetness of his lips arouses thee ; the bodies friction
is undeniable cant run from it cant hide it . his finqers
slip to ah warm wet place , followed by ah liqht kiss .
he notices your confidence cant help but be turned on
then you qot em riqht where you want em ` .

real love <3 .

currently playinq : doesnt mean anythinq - alicia keys




wake up in the morninq & hes the first thinq i think
about till the time i qo to sleep . i send em cute little text
messaqes throuqh out the day just to let em know im
thinkinq about him . i will surprise em w/ little qifts
just to show i appreciate him . ill hold hands w/ him in public
so people know we dont hold nothinq back . ill shower
him in kisses when he asks & ill qive him his space when
its needed . ill keep my self up to make him proud of his qirl &
ill dress down to show natural beauty .

i want love ; the REAL kind of love
but im in no rush to find it .

jealousy : KILLER disease

" you say that its love , but to me its lookinq counterfeit
i qet done w/ one & move riqht on to another bitch "
- wiz khalifa


today has been one hell of ah day & boy am i happy
its over . i swear niqqas are just as badd as females if
not worse , jealousy is known to be ah females disease but
lately a lot of niqqas have been catchinq it . never have i ever
met so many " qrown ass men " worried bout the next niqqa ,
its sad & pretty pathetic . ive never been the one to care for
the next bitch , if shes doinq better than me then kudos for her
but im not about to sweat you for that reason . the funny thinq
is , it will be the quy who looks secure - filled w/ confidence
up the ass . who flashes his money & his car but if you have
your shit toqether why are you worried about it ?

money . cars & the clothes = isnt everythinq
- - - - - - - - -
there are actually some females in the world who
look pass that & actually want you for what you are
inside , if you decide to settle for less
" thats ya business . "

one niqht ; no feelinqs involved

" shawdi make me feel like we fuckinq on the pill "
wiz khalifa ft. kev tha hustla

music playlist additions

couple of mixtapes have been leaked
or already out . new additions to my playlist
alonq w/ my favorite sonqs off thee albums .

FIRST:
tygablackthouqhts
___________

young money
heaven or hell
ice cream paint job
better days ft. qudda qudda
party qirl ft. lloyd
kill toniqht






" all honesty , i believe tyqa has come alonq way
coconut juice to kill toniqht . "


SECOND:
waleattentiondeficit
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beautiful bliss
shades
mirrors
prescription




" not ah biq fan of wale , but im no hater - i
can easily qive props when needed "

THIRD:
khalifadealorNOdeal
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this plane
riqht here
favorite show ft. booqz booqetz
superstar



" soo this album drops tomorrow , but was leaked
out earlier this week . if i could i would put all
15 tracks down as my favorite , its ah hot cd -
curren$y featured on the album "


FOURTH:
sofarsoqucci
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eastatlantaveqas
uptown bird flu
every freaky qirl in the world
best pills i ever had
throw it in the qucci baq






" dropped last thursday , yeah i been ridinq
the qucci wave lately - BURR - pause . "


FIFTH:
jcoletheWARMup
________

liqhts please
dreams ft. brandon hines
can i live & hold it down
the badness ft. omen



" im not ah hypocrit , i admit i just qot up
on j. cole last week . hes no kid cudi but
i can add ah couple sonqs on my playlist "



waves i still refuse to ride
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jay z . french montana . nicki minaj
drake & soulja boy

smokers section

" i need what the world cant qive me " - scott mescudi .
currently playinq : i be hiqh <3





soo , i missed the american awards on abc toniqht - i heard
kid cudi didnt win so it doesnt bother me . i was told there
was a lot of interestinq performances & of course lady qaqa
would be the one to take the cake ! im hopinq it re plays soon
so i can watch it because well you tube isnt all that qreat !

randomkidcudivideo:
its old but i still love the sonq
crookers [ remix ]

" fuck love "

" fuck love , for LOVE dont live here . "
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too many ladies qive these niqqas too many chances ,
too many brothers wanna be lovers don't know what romance is - jay z

TRUTHFULLYIDONT;qivetwoshitsletALONEone.

im lost in dreams & reality & i dont wanna be saved ,
because in my mind i believe im free .

short but simple

currently playinq : follow me - kid cudi
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this qoute was on my bestfriends paqe
& i couldnt help but feel it makes sense .

there are some thinqs in life you just cant have ,
sometimes its riqht in front you & it makes you mad
; knowinq you had it & now its qone , makes you wonder
" how did it qo wronq ? " maybe this was suppose to
happen , maybe it was fate , i hope at least for
my sake it isnt too late . . .

. _____________ .

layinq down ; lonely hurt & confused .
not knowinq the next step to take or even if i should
take that step . maybe its better to stay where i am ,
nothinq qets better nothinq qets worse - just steady .

bey & qaqa " video phone "

video review
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sad to say beyoncè just doesnt do it for me anymore , ill qive
her props she tried to cut down on the leotard in every video but she
just couldnt over come it . i admit this video is different from her other ones .
no dancers in this video & i like how she included lady qaqa . overall ,
i believe this was more of ah break for lady qaqa then beyoncè . all
thouqh she tried , she showed off more of her sexy side " i quess you
can call it " tryinq to out pop bey , but it was not her best work . beyoncè
strives to be so different & most of the time she qets away w/ it & then
there are times she just looks ridiculous . im NO hater - but bey qet it toqether !

" the cudder / heart "

kurrently playinq : she came alonq - kid cudi .



sooo cudi is cominq out w/ ah second video
from his album " man on the moon : the end of the day "
& im so happy its pursuit of happiness - im soo in love w/ this
sonq . i can only help but be impatient to see what he came
up w/ for the theme for this video . im not ah biq fan of
drake " at the moment " but i hear he appears in the video
so i quess biq ups to him - blahhh .

impatient karma

kurrently playinq : white lies - mr. hudson
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so i know mr. hudson has been out for ah minute now & im just
now tuninq into his music , but i cant stop playinq this sonq . its been
on repeat for the past week now - feel like im kinda qoinq through it .


hmph , wheres that bitch called karma when i need her .
this week has been ah very interestinq week & never did i think
my past would come knockinq on my door , but there he was .
im mixed up in this dilemma , not knowinq if i should keep
on movinq forward or take ah chance .

" arqhhh , qimmie all yah booty "

pirate costume
- - - - - - - -

" horror " niqht .

im rick james BITCHHH .
- - - - - - - - -
pricless moments ; that you have to remember
to keep your friendship alive .


october 31 , 2009 - is qoinq down as the second worse day ever .
put ah little liquor in someones system & stay back & watch how
people react . ah niqht that started w/ ah couple shots & mickey
d`s ended beinq stranded on qeorqe st. downtown new brunswick .
2 a.m costume on , phoneless on the corner - you would think i was
ah hooker , so you could only imaqine the feed back i was qettinq
from the cars passinq by . if it wasnt for my friend who was just as
half naked as i was , actually even more - i dont know what i would
have done . we were able to have some qood times i admit - if you
were in new brunswick & a car passed by yellin " im rick james BITCH "
out the window - then yeahh that was us ;] - so i wasnt the indian
princess or the qladiator that i wanted to be , i was ah pirate .




i dont know what the hell this is ; but usually drinkinq dark
liquor after 3 cups im where i wanna be & then i need
atleast two more to qet to where i need to be - but this had
me qone the first cup .

notetoself : must buy this more often *
















despite everythinq that happen , i still wouldnt
chanqe my friends for the world <3