christmas misery

currently playinq : lupe fiasco - solar midnite


blahhh ; havnt really been feelinq myself lately .
ive made some decisions recently & all thouqh i dont
aqree w/ it at the time beinq i know i did it for ah qood
reason , just wish i didnt feel like shit about it .

" i shut my eyes in order to see " - paul qauquin

. ____________________________ .

it just hit me today that christmas is riqht around the
corner . usually im pretty excited countinq down the
days but this year , not really lookinq forward to it .
this year , somethinqs not quite there - feel like
somethinq is missinq . christmas is about family
& love & cherishinq moments but lately family
love , & those precious moments has chanqed .
im really hopinq this is just ah phase that will
blow over in time <|3 .